It’s time for another episode of my confessions. I try to be vulnerable, open and honest with my writing.
So, here’s to honesty:
1. I have been incredibly frustrated with the blogging world lately. So much so, that I’ve almost thrown in the towel a few times this week.
2. I didn’t. I feel brave. And reinvigorated. And still, a little angry.
3. I have no desire to do my laundry. Or shower. Or clean bottles. In short: I feel lazy.
4. I have allowed exercise and maintaining my health to become optional. I can now SEE the results. Very discouraging, to say the least.
5. As a result, I feel very unattractive.
6. I am a Christian woman. I love Jesus. But I also love Lady Gaga. I’m excited about her concert. And I don’t feel bad about it.
7. I am a Christian woman. I’m also a registered Democrat. THERE I said it.
8. I didn’t want to confess the previous statement because I’ve been too concerned with what other people think about me.
9. I believe that when I arrive in Heaven and meet God for the first time, His voice will sound like Morgan Freeman. Okay, maybe I don’t believe that. I just hope for it.
10. When I get bored, I don’t made an effort to be productive. Instead, I make chocolate chip cookies.
11. Sometimes, I am a helicopter. I hover. Over Rowan, over Erik, over everything.
12. I am afraid of death.
13. I’m not very good at gardening. When flowers bloom, I cut them and bring them into my house.
14. I delight in how much cool stuff I have.
15. I have fallen behind in my Bible in 90 Days Challenge… and I’m having a hard time getting motivated to catch up.
So, there you have it. Just some things I needed to say. What’s something YOU have needed to say?
I love your confessions.
I love your honesty.
I have not made time to dig into the Word, let alone just SIT with my Creator in weeks.
I want to be perfect so the people that I love won’t have a reason to leave me.
I don’t think politics guide faith, I think faith should guide my politics.
I still struggle to see my femininity as a gift and not a weakness.
I turn up Lady Gaga and Ke$ha really loud when my coworkers leave the office and dance as I water the plants.
I think more money would make me happier.
Thanks for the confessions, Nish. I needed the reminder.
Thank YOU for your honesty. Love you!
I’m afraid of death, too.
It’s terrifying to me. I know what’s on the other end, but I can’t help being afraid.
this is wonderful. Thank you for being vulnerable + authentic.
Thanks for the encouragement, Shandell. You’re awesome
thank you for those confessions. I agree about the money.
And i too really think the Lord will sound like Morgan Freeman
He has the best voice.
Hey,
It’s honestly hard to stay motivated to read the Bible when you are reading pages of pages of laws. I promise it does pick up! Just tell yourself to take baby steps and you’ll find yourself through it and caught up in no time!
And I secretly love Lady Gaga too. (Shhhhh!)
Nicole
Haha! Thanks Nicole! I think everyone is a closet Lady Gaga fan.
I’m really glad you didn’t throw in the towel. You are brave and I know you’ll get over this hump and come out on top and stronger. You have e-friends to lean on. Thanks for sticking around!
Thanks for your help, advice and perspective.
i am afraid of death, too. sometimes to the point of making myself sick.
Me too. You’re not alone.
I am a Christian and I LOVE Lady Gaga, but secretly because I think people will judge me. And when I think of God’s voice, it’s more along the lines of Mufasa…. (James Earl Jones). Great Post!!
Thanks Sara! Glad you’re here.
This makes me so happy.
I printed out the B90 guide and never started.
I started the Couch to 5K program at EASTER and am on week 3.
I’ve had a blog post for everyday this week, but my house is nasty dirty.
Ahhh….
It never ends, does it.
Thankfully, there’s grace, grace and more grace.
I love your confessions but I just wonder why you were so scared to admit you are a democrat. I love God & I am too. I get that people get very touchy about beliefs, but being a Democrat & being a Christian are most definitely not mutually exclusive.
Thanks Joanna. Yeah, I don’t know why I was so scared? I’ve just seen a lot of people get attacked recently, and it has caused me to render my mouth silent. It’s a bummer that people are so combative instead of open and trying to listen and understand.
I get it, I really and truly do. I don’t judge people who believe differently from me, so I guess I just hope that other people are the same way. Keep on keeping on
I think I love you most truly.
Let’s be friends.
#1 Because today I feel fat AND listened to Bad Romance (shhh! Don’t tell!)
#2 It just happens.
#3 I delight in my cool stuff.
#4 This often makes me feel like bad human.
#5 I hover like its an olympic sport.
#6 I made macarons today instead of doing laundry. (see #1)
#7 I love Jesus and don’t really agree with any political party fully.
#8 Perhaps I am a Libertarian.
#9 I think honest lists like this make us realize our own humanity and really?
We should all just be ourselves <3
–Sara Sophia
Oh CAN we be friends?! Because I would love it.
Truly, I would.
And I agree… being ourselves is best. But why is it so hard? Why do we find the masks easier to put on? This is bothersome to me.
And… um… can I have a macaroon?
I am a christian too and voted for Obama. There, i said it!
:0)
Oh Grace, you are awesomely brave. But, if I’m not mistaken, you are a Portland girl. So, I would expect nothing less from you, you liberal hipster, you.
hmmmmmmmmm…. where do I begin?
I am not a democrat nor a republican…. and actually not a very good christian! Whats that say about your mother? scary
I am a bad person because I smoke? I want to quit, but wont.
I am lazy, lazy, lazy…. and I can’t even make cookies because hubby won’t eat them! I can make a ton of meatballs though!
I so love my cool stuff! especially my new iphone so I can see my adorable grandson and my beautiful daughter!
I am envious at my husbands energy, he works out all the time!
I have never read the entire bible
I hover… over all of you! Nish, Nick, Ryan, Glenn and now a beautiful grandson!
I don’t take care of myself as I should! and I have every opportunity to do so!
so many more….. too many to list…
GREAT blog Nish, really gets me thinking about how I need to make it all better…
Love you!
is this your mom??? How sweet is that! She sounds like a fabulous mom!!
haha
I wish my mom could actually learn to work a computer so she could comment on my blog!
Yep, she’s the greatest ever.
Thanks Mom
My confessions:
Every time I read your blog, I wish I were a better Christian.
I admire your Faith.
I haven’t been to church in years. YEARS.
I am a Democrat.
I love your blog and I am glad you didn’t throw in the towel.
I, too, have been frustrated with blogging lately and I feel like it shows on my blog.
I am the most unhappy with my body now than I have ever been.
I am stopping now.
Oh Amanda… I hope you can come here for encouragement! I’m glad you like it here. Just keep clinging to grace. That’s all we have, really.
I came from Lisa-Jo’s blog, but I decided to comment here instead of somewhere else because I think you’re awesome, and I want to join in.
I’m a Christian and not a Republican. What’s more shocking, I’m an academic and not a Democrat. I actually think the second sentence would surprise more people in the academic world than the first sentence would in the Christian world. I don’t even know what to do with voting any more, or political parties, or anything. I just pray a lot and go with my gut.
I sort of like Lady Gaga. That is, I don’t hate her (although the crazy things she wears on her face make me want to throw up a little, maybe it’s claustrophobia). But I like Britney Spears more.
I am at work right now, so I have to go back to doing that. Oops.
I’ll be back! Have a lovely Friday.
Love the honesty in this post!
Confession: I’m craving a deeper relationship with Jesus. Love me some Sunday morning worship music BUT I am watching The Hangover right night as I type this (and laughing). That’s kind of like the Lady Gaga thing right? : ) I hope so.
I think we all go back and forth with what kind of Christians we are supposed to be but really the most important thing is that we are! Love love that your mom commented with such sweet honesty. Makes this post even better.
Another confession? I’m approaching the official “mid twenties” and I still don’t know what political party I fall into. I tend to be more liberal minded on some things and then not so much on others.
Oh and I am very afraid of cancer and of something happening to one of my kids. Very afraid. Wow I had a lot to say!
Maybe we all need to do a post like this every once in a while!
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